31 Days of Parenting Littles: First

Zak is our firstborn, and that is such a special thing. I KNEW before I took the pregnancy test, that I was pregnant. We weren't even trying for a baby (weren't even considering trying for a baby for another year or two!), but somehow I knew. I prayed for him every night, from even before that pregnancy test turned positive. Zak changed so much in my life.

I was still struggling with depression before I got pregnant with him, but knowing I had a baby on the way really turned things around for me. Maybe part of it was hormonal, but I think a big part was just realising I held the future in me. Zak made me a mother- took the focus off myself and put it on him. He's brought me so much joy!

He is our firstborn, and in a lot of ways he's been the most challenging- not because we were first time parents, but just because he's so intense! He feels everything deeply- joy, anger, sadness, etc. Everything is dramatic and exuberant. He's creative, funny, and extremely outgoing. Zak can be sensitive, sweet, and helpful, or defiant and challenging on every issue that comes up. He didn't sleep through the night for 3 years, but in those years (and the two since), he's given so many cuddles and hugs, and made us laugh so many times at his funny antics. He's incredible, and such a blessing.

Zak, my firstborn son- I thank God for you!

This post is part of my 31 Days of 5 Minute Free Writes. See my first post if you haven't heard of 5 minute free writes.